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It’s 5.13am.

Still sniffling.

One glass of Sangria and a glass of Margarita Lime…and I am still wide awake.

Here comes the Xanax as the clincher.

Yeah, I love you too, Baby. You’re fast asleep!

I better sleep now. Have to go and pick up my meds and go for lunch after.

Someone loves this song so I am putting it up here.

And I love you so,
The people ask me how,
How Ive lived till now,
I tell them I dont know!

I guess they understand,
How lonely life has been,
But life began again,
The day you took my hand!

And yes, I know,
How lonely life can be,
The shadows follow me,
And the night wont set me free!

But I dont let . . .
The evening get me down,
Now that youre around,
Me!

And you love me too,
Your thoughts are just for me,
You set my spirit free,
Im happy that you do!

The book of life is brief,
And once a page is read,
All but love is dead,
That is my belief!

It’s impossible, tell the sun to leave the sky, it’s just impossible
It’s impossible, ask a baby not to cry, it’s just impossible
Can I hold you closer to me and not feel you goin’ through me?
Split the second that I never think of you? Oh, how impossible

Can the ocean keep from rushin’ to the shore? It’s just impossible
If I had you, could I ever want for more? It’s just impossible
And tomorrow, shouldya ask me for the world, somehow I’d get it
I would sell my very soul and not regret it
For to live without your love–It’s just impossible

Can the ocean keep from rushin’ to the shore? It’s just impossible
If I had you, could I ever want for more? It’s just impossible
And tomorrow, shouldya ask me for the world, somehow I’d get it
I would sell my very soul and not regret it
For to live without your love–It’s just impossible

Aku menciumi belakang tengkuk Yummy Baby. Dia geli-geleman. Lipstick di tangannya masih dalam keadaan bertutup dan dia masih gagal mengenhancekan bibirnya.

“Yang, I have to work!” protesnya dengan manja.

“Do you know what is better than work? Me eating you out to your heart’s content,” jawabku dalam bahasa orang kampungku.

Dia mengeluh dan mengucup bibirku. Kemudian dia mengeluh lagi. Kemudian, dengan pantas dia mengucup bibirku lagi dengan penuh berahi.

“Can I ask you something in your lingua franca?” tanyaku.

Dia hanya mampu mengangguk, sambil menarik nafas panjang.

“Adakah kelembapan anda berada pada tahap yang tinggi kini?”

Dia hanya mampu memberikan aku satu jelingan yang amat naughty.

A million stars tonight circle the dark night sky
A million question inside my head asking why? why? why?
I raise my head to gaze up into the empty space
There are only hopes and fears in this one very place

Maybe it was by God’s merciful grace
That I got to set my sight upon your lovely face
I may be able to walk upon a thousand lands
But you I cannot let slip away from my hands

I have to bear another lonely night
Without you by my side for me to hold tight
I wish to be with you forever
Living the balance of our lives together

A thousand stairs of life will become the hurdle
Together we shall overcome or we will fumble

Baby, I’m-a want you
Baby, I’m-a need you
You the only one I care enough to hurt about
Maybe I’m-a crazy
But I just can’t live without…

Your lovin’ and affection
Givin’ me direction
Like a guiding light to help me through my darkest hour
Lately I’m a-prayin’
That you’ll always be a-stayin’ beside me

Used to be my life was just emotions passing by
Feeling all the while and never really knowing why…

Lately I’m a-prayin’
That you’ll always be a-stayin’ beside me.

Used to be my life was just emotions passing by
Then you came along and made me laugh
And made me cry…
You taught me why…

Baby, I’m-a want you
Baby, I’m-a need you

Oh, it took so long to find you, baby

Baby, I’m-a want you
Baby, I’m-a need you

I am sitting here beside this grey pillar I sat to meet someone 32 weeks and a day ago today. This is where some beautiful memories started that culminated into something very painful, that I can now look on with some smile. The smile may not be perfect but it is a smile nevertheless. Why do I still remember such things? Well, how many years has it been since you broke off with your girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband? Do certain memories still haunt you, be it in a sweet or bad way? And here we are talking about 102 days since I lost someone who meant the world to me.

I sit here now looking at this beautiful woman in front of me wondering what kind of a life companion she would make for me. I see gentleness in her face though there is that hint of sadness in her eyes, either that or she has had too many a sleepless night due to work or personal problems. Either way, I think she would make a pleasant and loving wife, judging by her facial character.

I still dream and long to have a loving wife. I still long to have a loving wife who would straddle my lap, smiling sweetly at me, while I hold the back of her head and pull her lips upon mine, and kiss her passionately. I still long to hold a loving wife at night, and gaze upon her face lovingly as she sleeps, and continue so until I fall asleep, and again when I wake up the next morning. I still long for a loving wife whom I can tease and disturb while she cooks in the kitchen; who would smile at me with the most sincere smile as I walk into the house and hear her tell me how much she loves me even without her uttering a single word, as I hold her close to me.

32 weeks and a day ago those dreams began. They have just gotten stronger by the day.

It’s amazing how I feel when you are near
everything becomes great there is no fear
my life that was dark with the colour of doom
suddenly turns into a lovely bloom

Sunshine bathes the meadows of my heart
and keeps it warm when we are apart
you give me hope with your feelings so real
and slowly life’s joys begin to reveal

I have my temperaments, sometimes up, sometimes down
I will try to smile always though at times I may frown
you must know that a possession you are not, but you are a goal
you are my love, my life, you are joy to my soul

If it is just within the hour that I am condemned to die
I will smile with the thoughts of you, and only you, the reason why

A chapter slowly closes on me, the curtains start to fall
I try hard to inch forward, behind me I leave them all
The weather is sunny yet the waves are restless in my heart
I wonder if the path ahead is clear or will I suffer another cut

I want so much to move forward but I pause before I even start
I have this love in my heart but it strikes me like a dart
The river meanders beautifully but it is where my life flows out
This mind gets confused more as I try to turn about

There is so much love in my heart to give
There is so much in this life for me to live

I want to hold my love as her head lies on my arm
I want to be the one who protects her from every kind of harm
But each time when the night comes it is cruel, cold and empty
Which is why I want to move forward so there’s someone loving me

I want to sail away, be bold, and brave the world
I want to skim the waves, with one heading and make the sails unfurl
But the horizon I see is flat, not round, and beyond it I cannot see
And I always fear at the end of it is a chasm that will swallow me

I begin to drown even on dry land, like a bat that is blind during the day
Only my fingers are seen to breach the surface, I hope you can pull me away

You know who you are…you know who you are to me…